Past pleasures

well, this morning i had egg beaters, plain with some grated lite swiss cheese, swiss cheese that I grated myself over the pan like a European.(i like to pretend that Im someone else, somewhere else in most of my daily activites. I was in Vienna.
I had to get back on the wagon since I cheated most of the weekend. Cheated on my diet with my mister(cant really call it a mistress can I) my mister food that I like to eat. you name it girl scout cookies, breakfast at Panera bread where I had egg soufle and blueberry muffins, chinese food dumplings and wont ton soup. Lasagnne, real bread with butter, wine. It was just wonderefull.
No wonder I could'nt concentrate today. I was in withdraw. At least i can still have my coffee books and pugs.
today I found a way to accidentally print 5 copies of each spreadsheet instead of one. This is really bad because i REALLY cannot bear to think of the trees that are mutilated everyday so that we cna print pontless documents that some of these people don't even read. Thank God we recycle paper at my place of employment. I hid the damage and snuck in the room later and deposited it..
I cannot even explain more the kind of mess ups I made today. by 4:30, when I finally finished my work, I emailed a coworker Rachel, that I was ready for some wine! She replied, "that sounds great".
Rachel is the one person I have found who admits this working business is just a crock of shit. She is 25 and has been through a few jobs already trying to find one that does'nt make her miserable. She is an awesome person. Her ideal job is to be a QVC demonstrator. I hope I see her one day on the telly. She'de be great. She is bubbly and smiles all the time.
so, I then tell her, VIA emial, about this bra flask I saw advertised on the internet one day. It is actually part of a bra. you fill it with wine and wear it. It looks like boobs because its fluid and bounces around like, well, a boob. It really spiked her interest!! We tried to figure out how to get the straw to your mouth without anyone realizing what you were doing and then we realized it was 5.
So, oh forgot, had a can of soup for lunch at home. 0 points. cant beat that . and some peanut butter on a slice of bread. There was also a weird occurance of the train guard rails not going down and there was a train reaping up towards Woodbourne stop. We all kept crossing and this train conductor kept creaping up until finally the guard rails went down , I get home, and theres an envelope from Ruby Tuesdays for me. Apparently, they find me to be an important customer and gave me a 25 dollar pass since my last experience there wasn't up to par.
See, it pays to write the management. I emailed Todd Saltzman and thanked him for the pass and for listening and promising to fix the issues at my favorite restaurant. ( He assured me he did) I told him about the boob flask.(that is a lie) but I will keep in touch and let his read my reviews.
Broccoli, chicken frickin tenders. bowl of sugar free coolwhip with teaspoon coacoa powder on top. This is Nicks dream dinner. I cant wait until someday I never have to eat chickin frickin tenders again!! I put on a free movie for myself, since I had a rough day. :"The Hotel New Hampshire' Highly recommended. Coffee of course.
Hot bath, book that I stole from the kitchen. It was like going back in time. Judy Blume, one of my favorite authors from childhood. I even wrote her once and told her she was my favorite author. she wrote back to me. It was short but it was her writing! "Its not the end of the world" its the same cover from the seventies, just as I remember it. It makes me wonder where is MY copy? Where are my books. come to think of it, where is all my old stuff. Where are my old barbies? where are my shoes from when I was 5? My Halloween Costumes? those rocks I excavated from the hills of Pearl S. Buck? The ones that glistened and had all those colors, especially when dunked in water. I was soooooo sure they were worth something..........all those things I had......