Im bloggin , Im bloggin

Ive been putting this off because I cant get into the frame of mind to blogg for some reason.
I did the usual breakfast thing. Coffee, cereal.
OH alright it was cream of wheat AGAIN! I can't help it, I am very habitual.

Went off to work where I had more coffee and lots of tedious types of work thrown at me, enought keep me busy for the day.
I also found much to study in the way of human nature in the office. It's the best classroom for social and psychological study of humans and how they act towards each other. The trick is staying neutral while people act like infants.
There are those who act nice, who will rip your head off if you don't say or do what they thnk you ought to. Then there is the selfish, nasties, the emotionally unavailable people. the self centered, think the world revolves around them.
Then there are the real ones.It desnt take long to find these people for me. I'm a very good judge of character. In all of my studies of people I find that it is usually the people without the money that have the biggest hearts. There are a few of them in my office and thank god they are there.Then again sometimes these moneyless people can be small minded and wouldnt be hapy for you if you had something nice happen to you. But this can be very draining trying to distinguish one type from another and to navigate how you will deal with each personality as you come in contact with each one.
There are actually a few who don't even acknowledge that I am there unless they need me to do something for them like schedule a flight or a limo or make up a chart for their project and then they come over and say, "Hi how are you, can you do so and so for me?" This amazes me. I handle it as an observer always as I've learned not to get upset about because actually I could give s shit about them as well, but i just wonder how they do this in their minds that they think this is okay and that in their mind they can put aside the fact that they don't even say hello usually. Strange.
I'm very happy to world alone. Less energy I have to spend. I have my WPRB. I have my secret thoughts and my day dreams. I have my memories of the book I finished last night and the older I get the happier I am with me and the more uncomfortablei am around most other people anyway.
So I had two sheets of dried seaweed after I got to work. I folder them into squares and then rippedthem into small peicesthat I put in my mouth one at a time and allowed them to rehydrate one by one, thinking about the seaweeding process. who gathered this, who chopped it up this fine, it had to ahve been spread out to dry and then someone salted it.
See what I mean about my secret thoughts?
I had some grapes after that. Went home for lunch and had two scrambled eggs and two pieces of toast. Back to work, peppermint tea. 4 pm afternoon coffee.
Dinner, De Lorenzos, chicken francais with angel hair pasta. Cousin Annie is in town from California for a visit. No lie, she comes in once a year and says the exact same thing every year. You could mark your calendars. I could tape record it and just play the same conversation next year and sit in front of a photo of her.
In all fairness, I love her, shes very sweet and goodhearted. It's just the truth.

came home, brought the leftovers for the man, because they give you enough food for 4 days!
and here I m bloggin. Thinking about tommorow when I get my boy back. The bagel I'll have tommorow morning. The gas that was put in the car, the toll money I have in my purse. The lecture from the husband about wearing my seatbelt because he does'nt want me to die but I feel as Ive always felt. If I die. I die. It must have been my time or I wouldnt have died and if I die that means everyone can do without me because we planned it that way before we came. Im just glad I was here this long. the rest is just icing.
Speaking of icing. At lunch there was a show on the cooking channel and it was this guy who, after he graduated pastry school, decided to make cakes like no one else ever made cakes and he hired all of his friends and they made the COOLEST CAKES I ever saw and it made me want to make cakes to. I saw myself going to pastry school adn learning all the tricks and using my artistry for that.
so Ill end this blogg right here, right now.
Sorry for the delay.
Sleep well my friends.